Looking back I suppose I didn’t have the greatest starts in life. I can only blame myself for that really. I started drinking when I was about 11 and smoking cannabis soon after. I know that I played up a lot at home and I guess mum just couldn’t handle me anymore, so I was sent to a boarding school. Drugs were always a part of my life…actually, drugs were my life. Acid, ecstasy and cocaine, rave scene…it was fun, felt good.
I got married when I was 20 and we had a kid. I was so unhappy, just felt flat, trapped, like my life wasn’t going anywhere and I sank lower and started using crack. Before long I was injecting crack and heroin. My wife left and I ended up doing 6 years for attacking her new bloke. At least I kept clean when I was inside and I promised myself that I would never end up in prison again.
To be honest I did relapse when I was released but I begged for drug money because I didn’t want crime to fund my habit.
It must have been a year later when I came across Blenheim. I was on a subutex script but it was hard because I was staying at my mate’s who was still using. I started the day programme and Blenheim helped me with my housing and eventually I got into supported housing. I took up all the support that was on offer. I knew that I wanted to get clean and stay clean. My counselling sessions were really tough, talking through the mess I had made of my relationships and my childhood. I stuck at it though.
I have now finished a course in Construction through Blenheim’s ETE programme and I’ve even done a few temporary paid jobs.
I feel strong enough to do this now and still have support from my key worker and ETE worker.
People say that I am a nice guy, funny and supportive even…I never thought anyone would ever say that about me.